Wednesday, December 31, 2014

JOKE: "Quit WYA"

HUSBAND:  "You  are  ABCDEFGHIJK."

WIFE:  "Huh ???!!!"

HUSBAND:  "You  are  adorable,  beautiful,  caring,  delightful,  elegant,  fashionable,  giving  and  hot!"

WIFE:  "Thanks !   What  about  'IJK'?"

HUSBAND:   "I'm  just  kidding !"


CONSPIRACY THEORY: Where They Should Have Looked for Debris from Flight 370

In  the  Summer  of  2014,  our  post-Communist  Russian  brothers  could  not  stop  their  Viking  blood  from  boiling,  took  Sevastopol  (but  not  Chernobyl !  --  too  bad !),  tried  to  seize  a  corridor  to  Sevastopol  down  Eastern  Ukraine,   and  accidentally  shot  down  Malaysia  Airlines  Flight  17  in  the  process  with  a  surface-to-air  missile,  killing   298.  Where  the  plane  went  down  was  very  obvious.

In  December,  2014,  cows  in  India,   and  cars  in  China,  the  U.S.,  Europe  and  Russia  continued  to  so  badly  accelerate  global  warming  that  the  world's  giant  weather  cyclones  continued  to  spin  wider  and  wider,   and  grabbed  Air  Asia  Flight  8501  and  thew  it  into  the  sea,   killing  162.    Where  the  plane  went  down  in  the  water  was  obvious.

Which  makes  us  think  of  Maylasia  Airlines  Flight  370,  again.  Whatever  happened  to  the  debris?    Where  are  the  bodies?  Nothing  really  ever  showed  up  anywhere.

And,  there  was  no  news  that  something  bad  happened  to  explain  why  it  went  down.  The  Bermuda  Triangle  could  not  have  done  a  better  job  in  making  the  plane  disappear.

But,  espionage  could  have.

There  are  two  ways  espionage  could  have  brought  down  the  plane  --  (1)  murder  by  poison  gas  or  decompression  of  all  on  board  except  two  people  wearing  oxygen  masks,  one  hiding  in  the  electronics  bay  and  one  taking-over  the  cockpit  --  a  man  in  each  place  really  would  have  been  required  --  just  inside  the  Ho  Chi  Minh  Flight  Information  Region  on  Air  Route  765,   over  the  South  China  Sea,   followed  by  an  intentionally-transparent  fake  diversion  by  another  aircraft  to  the  south  and  west,  to   generate  confusion  by  disinformation;  or  (2)  shooting-down  the  plane  just  inside  the  Ho  Chi  Minh  Flight  Information  Region  on  Air  Route  765,   over  the  South  China  Sea,   followed  by  an  intentionally-transparent  fake  diversion  by  another  aircraft  to  the  south  and  west,  to   generate  confusion  by  disinformation.

Only  the  US,  Russia  and  China,  or  possibly  the  Israelis  with  US  assistance,  are  advanced  enough  to  pull-off  either.

In  Scenario  (1),    the  plane  would  have  been  taken-over  by  two  operatives,    and  then  landed  in  a  remote  place  in  China  (if  it  was  the  Chinese)  or  Australia  (if  it  was  us  or  the  Israelis)  or  some  other  place  (if  it  was  the  Russians)  to  recover  something  of  immense  tactical  or  strategic  value  in  the  cargo  bay,  while  a  drone  or  manned  aircraft  "replaced"  Flight  370  in  the  sky  and  made  sure  that  it  was   visible  to  Malaysian  radar,  and  then  faked  satellite  log-ons-and-transmissions,  to  employ  misdirection  to  distract  attention  from  the  real  operation.

In  Scenario  (2),  to  assassinate  a  tactically-  or  strategically-important  passenger,  the  plane  would  have  been  shot-down  over  the  South  China  Sea  just  inside  the  Ho  Chi  Minh  Flight  Information  Region  on  Air  Route  765, while  a  drone  or  manned  aircraft  "replaced"  Flight  370  in  the  sky  and  made  sure  that  it  was   visible  to  Malaysian  radar,  and  then  faked  satellite  log-ons-and-transmissions,  to  employ  misdirection  to  distract  attention  from  the  real  operation.

If  it  was  Scenario  (1)  and  if  the  operation  was  "successful"  (including  the  "successful"  murder  of  over  230  passengers  and  crew),  no  one  will  ever  find  any  evidence  unless  a  spy  satellite  or  landsat-type  satellite  accidentally  picks-up  the  landing  place  or  an  operative  feels  guilty  about  taking  God's  law  so  much  into  the  hands  of  men,  and  so  'fesses-up.

If  it  was  Scenario  (2),  the  verification  of  the  information  is  somewhere  on  the  bottom  of  the  South  China  Sea.

Interestingly,    a  New  Zealander  named  Michael  McKay  working  on  the  Songa-Mercur  oil  rig  off  the  coast  of  Viet  Nam   claims  that  he  actually  saw  the   aircraft  crossing  the  sky  at  a  low  altitude  to  the  west  of  the  rig,  burning.

http://www.cnn.com/2014/03/19/world/asia/malaysia-airlines-plane-ground-witnesses/


While  what  would  have  been  intelligence  agency  disinformation  had  us  looking  in  the  wrong  place,  completely,   the  two  things  put  together  -- McKay's  sighting   and  what  would  have  been  fake  airplane  satellite  transponder  log-ons --  actually  confirm  that  a  very  high-power  intelligence  agency  is  responsible  for  the  destruction  of  Flight  370.

Shrapnel  from  an  air-to-air  missile  explosion  from  a  drone  or  fighter  equipped  for  extremely  long  range  flying   would  have  punched  a  hole  in  a  wing  fuel  tank,   similar  to  the  hole  generated  by  debris  at  the  airport  which  brought  down  the  Concorde   in  the  year  2000 ...

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9MIhd4hVOeE

The  fact  that  what  would  have  been  fake   airplane  satellite  transponder  log-ons  going  south  toward  Diego  Garcia  suggests,  very,  very  gently,   that  it  wasn't  us  here  in  the  US  who  did  it  --  why  generate   a  diversion  that  points  at  the  correct  suspect?  But  it's  not  an  acquittal.  We're  still  suspects.

So,  there  you  have  it  --  as  close  as  anyone  is  ever  going  to  get  to  solving  the  mystery,  and  the  solution  isn't  very  pretty.

Friday, December 26, 2014

SIN IN THE CHURCH: Anti-semitism at Christmas Midnight Mass

In  the  brief  blurb  on  myself  for  this  website,  I  say,  "I  try  to  be  positive."

However,   sometimes  the  administrators  of  our  Church  fail  so  gigantically  that  we  absolutely,  positively  have  to  go  after  them,  "hammer  and  tongs,"  just  for  the  sake  of  God's  Church.

In  the  past,  I  have  publicly   blasted  the  bishops  and  priests  on  the  Church  for  running  a  50-year-long  operation    in  which  bishops,  with  written  recommendations,  would  send  priests  known  to  the  bishops  to  be  highly  promiscuous  boy-grabbing  gay  wolves  to  unwary  parishes  where,  again  and  again  and  again,  they  would  grab  and  seduce  new  young  male  victims  and  engage  in  anal  and  oral  copulation  with  them.

Well,  it's  time  to  go  after  them  for  something  else.

By  focusing-in  on  the  sins  of  Peter,  the  New  Testament  prepares  us  for  the  fact  that  the  leaders  of  God's  Church  would  be  the  same  kind  of  evil  morons  who  end  up  running  everything  else.

But  sometimes  these  guys  just  make  you  want  to  scream.

I  am  Roman  Catholic,  of  course,  but  my  wife  is  Jewish.

Years  ago,  before  the  Church  dissolved  St.  Gregory's  Parish  in  Magnolia,  New  Jersey,   the  pastor  Msgr.  Edward  Korda,  knowing  that  I  have  a  Jewish  wife,  put  his  hand  on  my  shoulder  one  Sunday  as  we  prepared  for  Sunday  Mass  in  the  sacristy  (where  I  was  his  lector)  and  came  close  to  me  and  in  a  furtive  manner  and  with  a  quiet  voice  he  said  something  like,   "Do  you  think  that  the  Church  can  survive  with  so  many  damn  Jews  running  so  many  of  our  social  institutions?"

I  was  astonished.  I  thought,  "This  guy  left  his  brains  back  in  Nazi  Germany!"   

When  the  Church  is  even  a  little  bit  anti-semitic,  it  connects  itself  to  this  achievement  of  the  European  Christians  who  went  along  with  the  Nazi  program ...






I  answered,  "Monsignor,  do  you  really  think  that  I  am  going  to  conspire  with  you   against  my  Jewish  wife,  her  Jewish  family,  and  the  Jewish  community?    Nope.  After  Mass,  I'm  going  home  and  tell  her  what  you  just  said  to  me!"

Well,  it  just  happened  again.

At  midnight  Mass  on  Christmas,  2014,  Fr.  Mark  Cavagnaro,  pastor  of  Our  Lady  of  Hope  Church  in  Blackwood,  New  Jersey,   gave  a  homily  on  how  the  coming  of  Jesus   in  the  humble  context  of  a  manger  in  the  rural  outskirts  of   Bethlehem   is  analogous  to  the  marvelous  Eucharist  in  the  humble  appearances  of  a  little  wafer  of  bread  and  wine.

He  introduced  that  subject  with  what  I  call  "a  two-gift  skit."  In  his  little  one-man  "skit,"  he  had  two  wrapped  "gifts."    One  was  a  beautifully  wrapped  box,  that  contained  only  a  pencil.  The  other  was  a  cloth  bag,   that  contained  a  marvelous  gold  watch.

Here  is  how  his  "skit"  began,  as  best  as  I  can  describe  it ...

"Look!"  he  said,  "Here  are  two  gifts  just  given  to  me,  in  this  box  and  in  this  bag!    Let  me  open  them,  right  here,  at  Mass!    First,  I  have  this  beautifully-wrapped  box.     The  wrapping  paper  is  wonderful.  In  fact,  I  think  that  the  colors  of  the  wrapping  paper  on  the  box  look  like  the  colors  of  Hannukah!"

And  then  he  opened  the  box  and  what  was  inside?     "A  pencil,"  he  said  with  a  disappointed  tone  of  voice  as  he  held  up  the  pencil.

In  other  words,  Jews  are  cheap,  and  he  got  the  pencil  from  a  cheap  Jew.  I  and  my  wife  and  our  children  all  heard  it  and  apprehended  his  meaning.    I  thought,  "What???!!!   WHAT???!!!    Has  he  flipped???!!!   What  is  he  doing,  inserting  anti-semitism  into  a  Christmas  homily???!!!"

Here  is  the  kicker:   As  Fr.  Cavagnaro  publicly  implicitly  reviled  Jews  to  a  church  packed  with  about  1,000  Catholics  attending  Mass,    apparently  for  no  good  reason  except  the  pleasure  it  gave  him  to  cultivate  hatred  for  Jews,    about  20  yards  to  his  left  my  Jewish  wife  was  sitting  in  the  church  choir,  where  she  had  been  working  as  one  of  Fr.  Cavagnaro's  singers  at  Mass  for  a  year.

She  has  been  doing  this  because  she  loves  God,  she  loves  me,   and  she  loves  people.

In  addition  to  singing  at  Mass  once  a  week,  my  wife  attends  choir  practice  on  Monday  nights,  and  practices  virtually  every  other  night  of  the  week.

My  Jewish  wife's  Catholic  family  and  a  Catholic  daughter-in-law  were  all  sitting  in  the  pews,  watching  proudly  as  she  sang  her  heart  out  for  Fr.  Cavagnaro.

And  then  they  heard  Fr.  Cavagnaro,  like  some  Nazi  supporter,  sneeringly  implicitly  revile  her  and  her  Judaism  out  of  the  blue!

I  felt  like  saying,  "What?    Priests  aren't  emptying  the  churches  out  fast  enough  for  you  with   homosexual  assaults  on  boys?    You  want  to  speed  up  the  exodus  even  faster  with  anti-semitism?"

God  save  us  and  the  Church  from  these  morons  leading  it!

Wednesday, December 24, 2014

HUMOR: Comments Between a Literature/Philosophy Major and a Music/Philosophy Major

An  actual  conversation ...

Music/Philosphy  Major:  What  do  you  think  we'll  be  doing  after  graduation?

Literature/Philosophy  Major:  We'll  be  flipping  burgers  at  McDonald's,  and  we'll  be  saying  to  customers  things  like,  "Are  these  really  french  fries,   or  just  a  thought  in  the  mind  of  God?"

Friday, December 19, 2014

HUMOR: For Adults Only, But Funny

I  was  just  over  at  the  supermarket   getting  some  groceries.  One  of  things  I  was  supposed  to  get  was  personal  lubricant.   I  searched  and  searched  and  searched,  but  I  just  couldn't  find  it.  So,  I  went  to  the  pharmacy  section  of  the  supermarket.  Behind  the  counter  was  a  cute  Asian  girl  who  looked  like  she  was  18.

"Hi,"  she  cheerfully  volunteered.    "This  is  my  first  time  here!  Can  I  help  you?"

"I'm  looking  for  personal  lubricant,"  I  responded.

"What's  that  for?"   she  asked  with  a  puzzled  look.

"It's  for  fixing  squeaky  doorknobs,"   I  answered.

"Cute,"  the  lady  pharmacist  in  the  rear  called  out.  She  whispered   in  the  ear  of  the  Asian  girl,  who  turned  beet  red.  "I'm  sorry,"  she  apologized  to  me,  smiling  nervously.

The  pharmacist  directed  me  to  one  of  the  aisles.   I  finally  found  it.   I  went  back  to  the  pharmacy  and  said,  "If  anyone  else  is  looking  for  it,  it's  over  by  the  shoe  polish."

HUMOR: Math That Makes You Hungry

To  discover  the  volume  of  a  round,  flat  pie  having  a  diameter  of  2(Z)  inches  and  a  thickness  of  A  inches,  multiply  pi  times  the  square  of  the  radius  times  the  heighth,  or

(pi)(z)(z)(a)

Thursday, December 18, 2014

MORALITY: One More Note on the World's Most Interesting Subject ...

No,  not  sex,  but  rather  "Who  is  going  to  Hell?" ...

Last  night,  at  the  gym,  I  saw  one  of  the  judges  in  our  county.   He  was  on  a  stationary  bike,  reading  a  paper,  so  I  figured  he  could  talk.

"Your  Honor,"  I  smiled  warmly  as  I  shook  his  hand,  "How  are  you  doing?"

We  talked  for  a  few  minutes.   We  got  around  to  the  subject  of  the  article  you  see  below,  entitled  "A  Sacred  Enterprise,  and  a  Glimpse  of  Evil."

He  asked,  "How  do  you  feel  about  the  brother  who  denied  the  sister  the  grave  site  she  wanted  next  to  her  beloved  mother,  and  who  kept  her  gravestone  blank?"

I  answered,  "I  cited  Proverbs  1:26.   In  effect  it  portrays  God  as  laughing  at  some  of  the  damned  as  they  entered  Hell.   Perfect  justice."

The  judge  responded  with  a  classic  answer:   Proverbs  is  Old  Testament.  The  Old  Testament  thinking  was  defective.   The  New  Testament  love  of  Christ  perfected  the  Old  Testament  mistakes.    "What  do  you  think?"

I  said,  "This  is  what  I  think:  If  you  do  this  to  the  New  Testament  salvation  paid  for  by  Christ's  torture  and  death"  --  and  I  turned  and  spat  derisively  to  the  floor  --  "then  you  have  to  face  the  brutal  justice  of  the  Old  Testament  God."

The  judge  looked  upset,   and  said,  "Listen,  I  have  to  get  back  to  my  paper."  And  we  parted.

MORALITY: I Just Remembered One More Story I Heard About Hell ...

I  thought  that  the  following  which  I  heard  from  a  minister  friend  was  a  very  cute  story...

It  is  the  end  of  time.    Mankind  is  standing  before  the  throne  of  God,   and  the  General  Judgment,  in  which  the  unforgiven  sins  of  all  are  made  known  to  all,   has  occurred.

God  divides  the  people  into  two  groups,   the  sheeps  and  the  goats.

God  says,  "Okay,  friends,  before  I  render  judgment,  one  last  question.  I  want  to  see  a  show  of  hands.    Who  here  thinks  that  the  sinful  group  on  my  right  should  be  damned  by  me  to  eternal  Hell  fire?"

All  hands  go  up.    Literally,  everyone's.

God  answers,   "Okay,  here  is  what  I  want  you  to  do:  Everyone  on  the  left,  go  to  the  right.  Everyone  on  the  right,  go  left."




MORALITY: One-Half of 1% Say, "Yes! I Am Hell-Bound!"

The  surveys  of  who  thinks  that  they  are  going  to  Heaven  and  who  thinks  that  they  are  going  to  Hell  are  always  very  interesting.

Very  consistently,  about  two-thirds  of  all  people  say,  "Yes!  I  am  going  to  Heaven!"

Very  consistently,  about  one-half  of  1%  of  of  all  people  say,  "Yes!  I  am going  to  Hell!"

The  figures  make  sense.   Evil  is  thoroughly  self-justifying.  That  is  why  it  is  evil.

Years  ago,  as  I  grew  up,  born-againers  became  a  national  religious  phenomenon.  People  would  walk  up  to  me  and  ask,  "Do  you  accept  Jesus  as  your  Lord  and  Savior  and  have  a  personal  relationship  with  God?"

It  occurred  to  me,  after  a  while,  that  among  other  things  the  question  virtually  always  meant,  "I'm  saved.  Are  you?"

I  was  startled  by  this  thought.  "They  KNOW  that  they  are  'saved'???    Is  it  TRUE  that  that  is  what  they  think???"

So,  when  I  was  approached  and  asked  the  born-againer  question,   I  would  respond  with  a  question,   "Do  you  believe  that  you  are  saved?"

Every  single  time,  the  answer  was,  "Of  course!"

A  few  added  something  like,  "If  you  have  doubts,  that  is  a  sign  that  you  may  be  in  trouble!  Watch  out!"

The  reason  why  I  was  startled  at  the  thought  is  that  I  had  always  been  a  Catholic  Bible  reader,   and  I  knew  that  in  Jesus'  Parable  of  the  Pharisee  and  the  Publican,  Luke  18:9-14,  Jesus  makes  it  clear  that  the  one  who  is  obviously  certain  that  he  is  Heaven-bound  is  Hell-bound,  and  that  the  one  who  is  obviously  pretty  sure  that  he  is  Hell-bound  --  and  so  on  his  knees,  shaking  --  is  Heaven-bound.

Read  the  Parable  and  judge  for  yourself.   Who,  between  the  two,  is  going  to  be  the  born-againer  asking  the  question?

So,  in  those  national  surveys,  maybe,  just  maybe,   I'll  seek  out  the  company  of  the  one-half  of  1%  at  the  end  of  time!!!

I  have  a  feeling  that  the  way  to  Heaven  isn't  just  narrow,  but  low:  Only  those  who  are  on  their  knees,  shaking  with  fear,  can  fit  in!!!

Wednesday, December 17, 2014

MORALITY: A Sacred Enterprise, and Then a Glimpse of Evil

For  years  I  had  a  client  who  smoked  like  a  chimney.     Of  course,  she  got  lung  cancer.   Bad,  inoperable  lung  cancer.     I  visited  her  in  the  hospital  and  later  at  the  hospice  both  to  do  law  work  for  her  to  prepare  her  Estate  for  her  death,  and  also  to  simply  visit  her.

Because  I  am  a  Catholic,   I  also  try  to  prepare  the  soul  to  see  God  and  be  judged  by  God.   So,  because  the  next-of-kin  was  a  brother  who  hated  her  and  for  whom  she  had  great  hatred,  I   said,  "You  are  about  to  see  God.    There  is  one  thing,  above  all  other  things,  which  God  demands  --  you  can't  go  to  Him  having  hatred  for  anyone.    If  you  can't  do  that  one  simple  thing,  you  lose.  You're  damned.  You'll  burn.

"So,  I  urge  you  to  write  a  letter  to  him,  not  forgiving  him,  but  humbly  begging  him  for  his  forgiveness!"  She  did  so.   It  was  a  well-done  humble  act.

Then  I  called  a  Catholic  priest,  who  heard  her  final  confession  and  gave  her  last  rites.

On  May  1,  2008,  the  hospice  taking  care  of  her  until  she  died  called  and  said,  "She's  dying!"

I  rushed  over  to  the  hospice  and  ran  to  her  bedside,  only  to  discover  that  I  had  missed  the  moment  of  dying  by  seconds.

Because  there  were  no  doctors  in  attendance  and  no  other  visitors  --  her  friends  were  freeloaders  who  had  no  use  for  her  dead  --  the  nursing  staff  asked  me  to  declare  her  time  of  death.    I  checked  her  pulse on  her  carotid  artery   and  on  her  wrist,  and  noted  that  she  showed  no  signs  of  life  at  all,  and  declared  her  dead  that  day  at  11:00  a.m.,  and  that  is  what  was  entered  on  her  death  certificate  --  a  sacred  enterprise  for  an  old  friend.

And  what  happened  with  the  hate-filled  brother?

It  is  a  classic  story  of  evil  possessing  a  soul.    I  forwarded  her  letter  confessing  her  fault  and  begging  him  for  forgiveness  to  his  lawyer,   who  forwarded  it  to  him.

He  responded,  in  effect,  by  "pissing  on  her  grave"!    He  had  legal  control  over  the  family  grave  plot.   He  made  sure  that  she  was  not  buried  next  to  the  mother  she  loved,  and  that  her  grave  stone  was  left  blank.  True  story!

If  I  were  God,  standing  there  --  and  believe  me,  God  was  standing  there  --  I  would  have  smiled  at  her  brother,  and  said  to  him,  "All  she  did  is  come  to  you  on  her  knees,   confess  to  you,  and  beg  forgiveness,  and  you  responded  by,  in  a  way,  abusing  her  corpse.  You  may  as  well  have  pissed  on  her  grave,  as  far  as  I  am  concerned.  Please  explain  to  me  why  I  should  not  damn  you  to  Hell  fire."

At  a  few  points  in  the  Bible,   God  says  some  downright  shocking  things.  The  fiercest  expession  in  this  direction  is  Proverbs  1:26:  "I, in my turn, will laugh at your doom;  I  will mock  you  when terror [at  your  damnation]  overtakes you!"

Whew!   It  is  for  situations  like  I  just  described  that  God,  in  His  perfect  justice,  reserves  such  language!

HUMOR: I Like These Two ...

"If  airplane  black  boxes  are  so  indestructible,  why  don't  they  make  the  rest  of  the  airplane  out  of  the  same  stuff?"

and

"If  flying  is  so  safe,  why  are  airports  called  'terminals'?"

Wednesday, December 10, 2014

THEOLOGY: What Does the Feast of the Immaculate Conception Celebrate ? Part 1

The  Feast  of  the  Immaculate  Conception  celebrates  the  miraculous  conception  of  Jesus  in  the  womb  of  Mary, right?

Wrong.   Dead  wrong.

In  fact,  the  Feast  of  the  Immaculate  Conception,  on  December  8  of  every  year,  celebrates  the  miraculous  conception  of  Mary  in  the  womb  of  her  mother,  whose  name  has  come  down  to  us  as  Anna,   as  a  result  of  the  perfectly  natural  combining  of  the  seed  of   Anna   and  that  of  her  father,  whose  name  has  come  down  to  us  as  Joachim  (which  my  son   Joshua  assures  me  is  correctly  pronounced  "Wah-KEEM,"  not  "Joe-AH-kim," something  which  I  won't  agree  with  until  he  agrees  with  me  on  a  debated  point  in  astronomy).   (Some  Catholics  and  Orthodox  Christians  like  to  also  imagine  that  Mary  was  conceived  without  the  perfectly  natural  sexual  desire,  grunting,   groaning  and  sweat  of  really  good  sex,  but  it  seems  to  me  that  the  exact  opposite  should  be  true,  theologically.  If  Mary  was  well-conceived,  then  the  marital  bed  of  her  parents  was  a  very   wonderful  place  --  because  marital  sex  is  ordained  by  God  to  be  wonderful  --  and  a  fun  place,  because  marital  sex  is  ordained  by  God  to  be  fun,  not  a  polite,  robotic  exercise   in  inconvenient  physical  activity  by  grim  people  who  would  rather  be  somewhere  else  praying.)

But,  if   the  conception  of  Mary,  unlike  that  of  Jesus,  was  the  result  of  the  perfectly-natural  marital  act  of  Mary's  parents,   just  like  the  conception  of  you  and  me,  why  do  we  say  that  it  was  "miraculous"?

Simple  (or  not-so-simple,  depending  on  one's  perspective):  Something  happened  in  Anna's  womb  which   was  overtly  invisible.  At  the  moment  that  Joachim's   sperm  and  Anna's  ovum  joyously  zinged  together  in  Anna's  Fallopian  Tubes  after  a  really  neat,  really  wild,  very  satisfying  sexual  encounter,  for  the  first  time  in  the  history  of  our  species,  since  our  hominid  ancestors  were  ensouled  by  the  ruwach  or  breath  of  God,  the  resulting  zygote,   or  fertilized  egg,  comprising  "Mary  daughter  of  Joachim"  was  not  "innately  damnable"  --  not  stained  with  the  stain  of  Original  Sin  --  and,  more  importantly,   neither  were the  resulting  ova  in  Mary's  ovaries,  and  the  womb  and  body  that  would  hold  a  fertilized  ovum,  so  that  perfect  God  could  later  touch  Mary's  physical  reality  at  the  time  of  Jesus'  conception.

To  understand  what  that  means,  we  have  to  understand  "Original  Sin."

That  is  what  the  Feast  of  the  Immaculate  Conception  is  about  --  Original  Sin,  and  Mary  being  free  of  it.

And  here  we  crash  into  a  problem.  I'll  be  exaggerating  somewhat  to  get  to  the  point  fast,  here.

Most  devout  Christians  still  think  that  Original  Sin  was  an  event  in  history  --  that  it  was  something  very   bad,  probably  having  to  do  with  sex,  that  two  perfect,  naked  people  without  belly  buttons  did  while  they  were  living  in  a  perfect  place  in  which  mosquitoes  did  not  bite  them, which  a  really  nasty  God  responded  to  by  yanking  them  out  of  their  perfect  place  and  ironically  converting  them  and  their  100-billion-or-so  lineal  descendants  into  sin-loving  dissolutes  deserving  nothing  but Hell  fire,  so  that  God,  having  shot  His  Own  creative  efforts  in  the  foot  this  way,  had  to  engage  in  emergency  saving  action  by  having  His  Own  beloved  Son  tortured  and  then  murdered  horribly.

Everything  about  that  exaggerated-and-therefore-easier-to-comprehend  restatement  of  the  Original  Sin  teaching  is  wrong,  wrong,  wrong,  wrong,  wrong,  wrong,  wrong.  And  that  is  why  so  few  people  understand  anything  about  Original  Sin  or  about  Mary's  Immaculate  Conception.

Before  I  start  discussing  what  is  wrong  with  that  common  understanding  of  Original  Sin  set  forth  above,   let  me  attempt  to  portray,  here,  what  Original  Sin  actually  is.

God  is  "ineffable."    That  means  that  our  minds  can't  get  from  here,  where  we  are,  to  "up  there,"  where  God  is.  That  makes  sense.    That  is  why,  contrary  to  any  mistaken  impression   you  may  have  gotten  from   Aquinas,    God  can  not  be  "deduced"   with  mathematical  1+1=2 - style  certainty,  so  that  He  has  to  be  "induced"  with   imperfect,  possibly-incorrect  reasoning.   (Aquinas'  own  conclusions  comprise  exceptions  to  his  own  logical  process  --  for  example,  if  order  makes  it  necessary  that  there  be  an  "orderer,"   then  because  order  is  in-and-of  God,   He  too  must  have  an  "orderer,"  except  that  He  doesn't!  That  problem,  which  is  innate  to  each  of  Aquinas'  "proofs"  of  God,   generates  good  doubts  about  our  ability  to  "prove"  God.)

Because  God  is  "ineffable,"   we  can't  quite  mentally  encompass  the  perfections  of  God  --   God's  perfect  Sovereignty,  God's  perfect  Goodness,  and  God's  perfect   Justice.

The  best  way  to  understand  those  three  things  is  to  view  them  as  "things  that  are  wildly  true  about  God."

It  is  wildly  true  that  God  is  "sovereign"   --  meaning,  He,  our  One  God  somehow  eternally  comprised  of  three  divine  Persons,  is  The  Boss  in  all  conceivable  ways.

Because  He,  The  Boss,  was  also  overflowing  with  love,  He  decided  to  create  us,  to  love  and  be  loved  by  Him.

But  because  He  is  barred,  by  His  Own  sovereignty,   from  creating  co-equal  competitor  Gods,   it  was  "against  God-ness"  for  us  to  be  God's  equal.  We  are  required,  by  "God-ness,"   to  be  less  than  God.

This  status  creates what  Middle  Ages  theologians  referred  to  as  "the  contingency  problem."  We  are  not  self-causing;  we  are reliant  on  God  for  our  continued  existence.   To  put  it  differently,  we  who  are  terrified  of  destruction  and  death  are  reliant  on  One  Who  is  "not  us"  to  keep  us  in  existence.  This  causes  an  insecurity  and  panic  in  our  beings  which  we  try  to  fix  by  making  our  own  rules  --  by  sin.

So,  we  are  "sin  machines."

The  problem  is  profound.  It  isn't  just  "bad  potential"  --  a  "probability"  that  we  will  sin.

It  means  that,  without  grace,   we  will  make  "the  bad  decision"  every  single  time  when  we  are  confronted  with  moral  choices.  It  is  hard  for  us  to  see  this  and  to  believe  it,   because  we  have  grace affecting  us,  right  now.

This  is  what  Jeremiah  17:9  means  (in  the  King  James  translation  set  forth  here)  when  it  describes  the  heart  of  Man  as  "deceitful  above  all  things,  and  desperately  wicked."

The  world  seems  bad  now,  but  it's  actually  very  good  compared  to  what  it  would  be  without  grace.  Without  grace,  we  humans  would  be  living  in  Bedlam.

Without  grace,   we  humans  would  literally  be  living  in  a  Hell  on  Earth.

Soooooooooooooo,    because  this  is  what  Ungraced  Man  is  like,   and  because  this  is  what  Graced  Man  is  like  whenever  one  of  us  makes  the  decision  to  set  aside  grace  and  lick  the  Lollipop  of  Life,   God,  who  is  perfectly  Good,   won't  touch  us.

Now,  when  He  created  us,  perfectly  Sovereign  God  was  fully  aware  that  necessarily-lesser  created  Man  would  have  this  problem  innately,  in  his  flesh,  and  that  this  made  us  untouchable  and  innately unlovable   as  far  as  God  was  concerned.

So,  even  before  our  creation  God  perfectly  understood  the  need  for  grace.    In  other  words,  He  was  aware  that  the  cake  had  to  be  baked  with  a  special  ingredient.

But  then  another  problem  arises  from  God  being  perfectly  Just.

In  a  sense,  the  perfect  Justice  within  God  screams  an  objection  to  the  prospect  of  giving  Ungraced  Man  grace.  "NO!"  it  yells.  "NO  GRACE  FOR  THESE  DISGUSTING  PIGS!   GRACE  WOULD  BE  'PENNIES  FROM  HEAVEN'!  A  'FREE  LUNCH'!  THERE  IS  NO  SUCH  THING  AS  A  'FREE  LUNCH'!   SOMEONE  HAS  GOT  TO  PAY  FOR  THIS  GRACE,  WHICH  AMOUNTS  TO  A  FREE  RIGHT  TO  SHAKE  HANDS  WITH  PERFECT  SOVEREIGN  GOD!"

And  at  some  point  within  the  Divine  Reality,    the  Person  of  Almighty   God  Whom  we  call  "God's  only  beloved  Son"   raised-up  His  hand,  and  said,  "I  will!  I'll  pay  the  price  for  grace!"

And  God  the  Father  said,  "I  lovingly  accept  this  loving  gift  of  My  beloved  Son,  and  so  I  offer  My  Son  up  to  suffer  horribly  to  pay  for  grace."

And  so   even  before  we  were  created,   God  envisioned  that   grace  paid  for  by  the  horrible  torture  and  death  of  God's  Own  beloved  Son  was  the  final  ingredient.

And  that  that  same  grace  would  make  Mary  the  one  chosen  to  be  mother  of  God  the  Son  immaculate,  so  that  the  perfection  of  God  could  touch  her,   join  to  her  flesh,  and  be  carried  by  her  to  birth,  so  that  he  could  be  born,  and  then  tortured  horribly  and  murdered,  to  purchase  grace  for  mankind  from  God's  perfect  Justice.

So,  when  Christ,  on  the  cross  gasped,  "It  is  finished,"    and  He  died,  what  did  He  mean?

What  was  finished?

Answer:  Our  creation!

He  had  paid  for,  and  supplied,  the  final  ingredient,  grace,  which  issued  from  the  cross  from  that  moment  into  the  past,  the  present   and  the  future.

So,  "Original  Sin"  isn't  "something  very   bad,  probably  having  to  do  with  sex,  that  two  perfect,  naked  people  without  belly  buttons  did  while  they  were  living  in  a  perfect  place  in  which  mosquitoes  did  not  bite  them, which  a  really  nasty  God  responded  to  by  yanking  them  out  of  their  perfect  place  and  ironically  converting  them  and  their  100-billion-or-so  lineal  descendants  into  sin-loving  dissolutes  deserving  nothing  but Hell  fire,  so  that  God,  having  shot  His  Own  creative  efforts  in  the  foot  this  way,  had  to  engage  in  emergency  saving  action  by  having  His  Own  beloved  Son  tortured  and  then  murdered  horribly."

Instead,  Original  Sin  is  "the  sinfulness  within  our  flesh  from  our  origins"  --  innate  to  the  flesh  of  Man  who  had  to  be  less  than  and  reliant  upon  perfectly  Sovereign  God  --  so  that  we  innately  suffered  from  alienation  from  perfectly  Good  God,  so  that  in  His  eyes  we  were  innately  "desperately  wicked"  and  so  unlovable,  so  that  grace  was  necessary  as  a  final   ingredient.

So,  what  is  all  of  that  Adam-and-Eve  stuff  in  the  Bible?

It  is  a  Dr.-Seuss-level  fictional  picture  of  the  complex  theological  reality  of  Original  Sin  generated  by  God  to  explain  the  problem  to  us.

How  many  readers  of  this blog  will  go  to  their  significant  others  after  reading  this,  smile,  and  say,  "WAIT  TILL  I  EXPLAIN  TO  YOU  WHAT  'ORIGINAL  SIN'  IS !!!" ?

Very  few.

Instead  you'll  stick  with  that  story  about  "something  very   bad,  probably  having  to  do  with  sex,  that  two  perfect,  naked  people  without  belly  buttons  did  while  they  were  living  in  a  perfect  place  in  which  mosquitoes  did  not  bite  them, which  a  really  nasty  God  responded  to  by  yanking  them  out  of  their  perfect  place  and  ironically  converting  them  and  their  100-billion-or-so  lineal  descendants  into  sin-loving  dissolutes  deserving  nothing  but Hell  fire,  so  that  God,  having  shot  His  Own  creative  efforts  in  the  foot  this  way,  had  to  engage  in  emergency  saving  action  by  having  His  Own  beloved  Son  tortured  and  then  murdered  horribly."

The  bottom  line,  here:  The  Feast  of  the  Immaculate  Conception  celebrates  the  special  grace  of  perfection  so  that  Mary  was  somehow,  by  grace,   preserved  even  from  the  risk  of  setting  aside  grace  and  so  making  herself  loathsome  to  --  and  untouchable  by  --  God,  so  that  God  could   enter  her,  touch  and  join  to  the  ovum  from  one  of  her  ovaries  that  became  Christ,  fertilize  it,  and  then   implant  in  the  wall  of  her  uterus,   where  Mary  carried  it  until  Jesus  was  born  in  the  normal  wonderful  gooey  human  fashion,  so  that  He,  supremely,  was,   at  all  moments  in  time,  both   God  and  also  One  of  Us.

Okay.  Time  to  press  the  "Publish"  button  and  see  if  I  get  into  trouble.

A  lot  of  radical  Mariologists  won't  like  that  "gooey"  business.

Saturday, December 6, 2014

HUMOR: Friars and Monks

A monastery starts  what  the  English  refer  to  as  a "fish and chips store."  When the store opens, a client comes in, and asks one of the clerics,  "Are you the fish friar?"

"Oh, no," the cleric answers, "I'm the chip monk!"

Thursday, December 4, 2014

PERSONAL EXPERIENCES: My Meeting with Duck Lady

Back  in  January,  1978,   I  was  in  the  middle  of  a  one  year  sabbatical  from  law  school.  I  took  the  year  off  because  I  was  a  young  man  who  had  a  lot  of  debts,  who  needed  to  get  them  out  of  my  life  and  off  my  mind,  so  that  I  could  pay  more  attention  to  law  work.  I  had  the  opportunity  to  work  two  good  jobs  at  once,  to  pay  off  my  debts  within  the  year.  I  did  so.  And  I  thereafter  aced  the  rest  of  law  school   and  scored  second  highest  in  my  class'  bar  exams.

One  of  the  jobs,  during  my  one  year  sabbatical,  was  a  second-shift  job  at  what  is  now  called  SmithKline  Beecham  Corporation,  at  their  corporate  headquarters  at  15th  and  Spring  Garden  Streets   in  Philadelphia.  I  was  a  pharmaceutical  operator  --  a  "drug  cook"  --   engaged  in  the  manufacture  of  vast  quantities  of  over-the-counter  drugs.

On  January  15,  1978,   it  was  a  cold,  wet  night  as  I  came  home  to  my  apartment  from  my  second  shift  job  at  SmithKline.   I  stopped  by  the  Inquirer  building  on  my  way  down  15th  Street  toward  Market  at  12:30  a.m.  and  purchased  the  earliest   edition  of  the  following  morning's  Inquirer  off  the  loading  docks  in  the  back  of  the  building,   made  my  way  down  to  the  eastbound  side  of  the  subway  station  at   15th  and  Market  Streets,   and  sat  down  on  a  subway  station  bench,  and  read  my  Inquirer  as  I  waited  for  a  train.  When  I  did  that,  there  were  about  20  other  second  shift  workers  standing  or  sitting  around  me,  in  the  station.

Several  minutes  later,  as  I  sat  deeply  absorbed  in  my  reading,   a  wave  of   the  worst  kind  of   smell  of  human  crap  and  pee   filled  the  space  between  my   newspaper  and  my  face.  I  thought,  "What  the  heck ???!!!"

I  put  down  my  paper,  and  to  my  horror,  sitting  on  the  bench  to  my  right,  was  the  world  famous  bag  lady,  Duck  Lady,  who  was  known  for  walking  around  the  streets  of  Philadelphia  quacking,  quacking,  quacking  like  a  duck,  as  she  begged.  But  on  this  occasion,  she  was  sitting  beside  me,  and  I  was  smelling  her  smell  of  crap  and  pee.  It  made  me  feel  like  I  was  standing  in  a  toilet  bowl  after  someone  used  it  but  didn't  flush  it.

At  first  I  looked  around  in  a  panic  for  a  means  of  escape.  I  saw  that  everyone  who  had  been  standing  around  us  on  the  subway  platform   several  minutes  before  had  retreated  to  the  opposite  end  of  the  subway  platform,   and  they  were  all  down  there,  staring  up  at  us,  to  see  what  I  would  do.

That  woke  me  up.  That   abandonment  of  Duck  Lady  as  a  monster  all  should  run  from,  by  those  people  on  the  subway  platform,  shocked  me.   I  thought  to  myself,   "I  am  not  going  to  subject  this  lady  to  the  indignity  of  treating  her  like  a  monster!"  So,  I  forced  myself  to  sit  there  and  breathe  her  smell  of  crap  and  pee.

As  I  did  so,   I  saw  that  in  that  freezing  cold  wet   subway  platform,   Duck  Lady  was  only  wearing  a  thin  damp  nightie  and  slippers,  as  she  convulsed  involuntarily  on  the  bench  beside  me  --  undoubtedly  due  to  Tourette's  Syndrome  --  quacking,  quacking,  quacking.

Did  I  think  of  taking  off  my  warm  winter  coat  and  giving  it  to  her?

No.

As  she  quacked,  Duck  Lady  took  off   one  of  her  slippers  and  held  it  out  toward  me.   I  saw  some  crumpled  dollar  bills  in  it.   I  thought,  "It's  her  'bank'!  She's  begging!"

I  took  out  my  wallet  and  gave  her  the  cash  that  was  in  it.    I  placed  it  in  her  cold,  wet  slipper.  Big  deal,  right?

And  how  did  Duck  Lady  respond?

In  her  personal  cloud  of  crap  and  pee  smell,   she  stopped  quacking  for  a  few  seconds,   and  said  a  prayer  for  me.   She  said,  "May  our  Blessed  Mother  watch  over  you!"

Then,  as  she  relaxed  and  put  her  slipper  back  on  her  foot,   she  resumed  her  relentless  quacking,  quacking,  quacking.

At  that  moment,  a  train  came  along,  and  I  was  happy  to  escape  to  it.   As  the  doors  closed,  I  saw  her  in  her  wet  nightie,  and  I  thought,  "Why  didn't  I  give  her  my  coat?"

Answer:  Because  I  preferred  myself  too  much.

Lesson  to  my  Catholic  brethren:  Give  them  the  coat  off  your  back.

Tuesday, December 2, 2014

Be a Deus Ex Machina

In  Shakespearean  times,    an  employee  of  the  company  putting  on  the  plays,  working  in  the  catwalks  above  the  stage,  would  sometimes  trip  and  fall  20  feet  or  so  --  plop !  --  smack  into  the  middle  of  the  play  being  watched  by  the  audience.  If  no  bones  were  broken,  he  would  stand  up  and  quickly   pretend  to  be  an  angel  or  a  god  from  above,  delivering  a  message  or  rendering  unexpected  aid.

This  practice  mutated  into  a  figure  of  speech  --   a  "deus  ex  machina,"  or  "the  god  from  the  machinery"  --  referring  to  the  person  who  inserts  himself  unexpectedly  into  the  time  of  troubles  of  another  person  and  renders  aid.

Look  for  the  opportunity  to  be  a  "deus  ex  machina"  in  your  life.   I've  known  a  few.    I  had  a  friend  in  high  school  named  John  Lazauskas.   His  father  was  an  ordinary  guy  --  a  little  man  who  raised  his  little  family  in  a  little  row  home  in  the  Frankford  section  of  Philadelphia.    

We  all  went  down  to  the  Frankford and Pratt  bus  terminal   on  workday  mornings  to  catch  a  bus  or  trolley  or  the  Frankford  elevated  train  to  school  or  our  job.   Every  day,  thousands  of  people  saw   the  homeless  Smelly  Bag  Lady  crawling  around  between  nooks,  looking  for  opportunities  to  beg,  pee  or  sleep.

One  day,  as  hundreds  of  people  were  looking  on,  John  Lazauskas'  father  astonished  the  universe,  the  angels  and  the  demons  by  bringing  the  homeless  Smelly  Bag  Lady  a  wonderful   breakfast  on  a  tray,  while  the  rest  of  us  stood  puzzled,  and  numbed  by  the  programming  of  our  age  and  by  our  own  internal  laziness,  fear  and  inertia  into  watching  one  of  God's  precious  children  suffer  horribly.

Mr.  Lazauskas  did  this  day  after  day,  until  the  homeless  Smelly  Bag  Lady  made  headlines  by  being  hit  and  crushed  by  a  bus.

When  Mr.  Lazauskas  did  what  he  did,  nonetheless,  he  permitted  the  invincible  love  and  power  of  the  almighty  creator  and  destroyer  God  of  the  Universe   to  enter  and  suffuse  his  flesh  and  mind,   so  that  he  became  God's  most  powerful  tool  on  Earth  at  that   place  and  time,   to  the  astonishment  and  applause  and  cheering  of  the  angels,   and  the  astonishment  and  anger  of  the  demons.

Be  one  of  the  good  guys.   Astonish  the  universe.    Be  a  deus  ex  machina.

Sunday, November 30, 2014

My Near Death Experience in 1978

In  1978,   at  age  25,  I  had  a  minor  stroke.    I  was  sound  asleep  in  the  middle  of  the  night,  enjoying  a  very  pleasant  dream,  when  all  of  a  sudden  the  dream  mutated  into  a  horrible,  black  nightmare.   It  got  worse  and  worse,  until  something  forced  "me"  out  of  my  body.   I  found  myself  in  perfect  health  in  a  place  of  subdued  light.  It  was  extremely  comfortable,  except  that  in  the  background  I  heard  what  I  came  to  refer  to,  later,  as  "a  schizophrenic  orchestra"  playing  disordered  "music"  in  the  background.

I  looked  to  my  right,  and  saw  a  tunnel  going  up  at  about  a  30  degree  angle.  The  tunnel  was  about  100  yards  wide.    It  seemed  to  go  up  for  miles.

I  began  to  rise  into  the  tunnel,  as  I  heard  the  "music"  of  the  "schizophrenic  orchestra"   retreating  into  the  background.

As  I  rose,  I  flew  "eyeballs  first."  That's  about  as  well  as  I  can  describe  it.     I  think  that  I  was  naked,  but  I  couldn't  have  cared  less.     Though  aware  that  I  was  dead,   I  was  completely  unafraid,    and  perfectly  comfortable.    I  was  only  intent  on  what  lay  ahead,  as  I  flew  up  at  maybe  50  mph.    I  went  up,  up,  up,    until  at  a  particular  point  I  saw  a  brilliant  light  source  in  the  distance.  I  thought,  "Huh!"  I  stared  hard  at  the  light  source,    trying  to  discern  detail.

As  I  came  within  100  yards  of  it,  my  velocity  upwards  slowed.  I  was  deeply  shocked  to  see   that  the  light  source  was  brilliant  background  light  behind  an  ordinary  rectangular  door-shaped  opening.  The  shape  of  the  doorway  is  what  struck  me.     I  thought,  "Huh!  They  have  that  shape  doorway  up  here ???"

I  continued  slowing  to  a  few  miles  per  hour.

Then,  something  happened.     Something  wiped-out  my  memory  of  what  happened  during  the  next  few  minutes.  I  believe  that  it  was  intentional.  I  deduce  from  where  the  memory  picks-up  next  that  I  was  told  something.     I  have  this  vague,  vague  memory  that  "guys  in  cowls"  --   monks ?  --  talked  to  me,  but  I  don't  know  for  sure  if  that  is  my  imagination  being  over-active.

My  memory  of  the  event  picks-up  where  I  am  still  floating  in  the  tunnel,  but  I  am  very,  very  slowly  starting  to  float  back  down,  feet  first.  I  am  thinking  to  myself,    "I  have  too  much  to  DO !!!   I  have  too  much  to  DO !!!   I  have  too  much  to  DO !!!   I  have  too  much  to  DO !!!   I  have  too  much  to  DO !!!   I  have  too  much  to  DO !!! "  I  couldn't  care  less  that  I  am  rushing  down  the  tunnel,  faster  and  faster  and  faster,  feet  first,  at  what  was  maybe  hundreds  of  miles  per  hour.  I  only  want  to  get  back  to my  body.

At  the  bottom  of  the  tunnel,  I  zzzzzzzzzziiiiiiiiiipppppppppp  back  into  my  body  with  a  kind  of  a  "thump,"  which  forces  me  to  wake-up  in  my  body,  in  my  bed.  From  this  point  on,  my  Near  Death  Experience  has  ended.      I  could  immediately  tell  that  something  had  gone  seriously  wrong  in  my  brain.    I  tried  to  think,   with  words,  "What  is  wrong  with  my  brain?"   But  the  words  got  all  jumbled-up.   I  tried  to  say  something  like,  "Will  my  brain  get  better"  outloud  in  the  bedroom,  but  my  tongue  articulated  the  words  all  jumbled-up,  with  remarkable  efficiency.     The  effect  on  me  of  being  able  to  jumble-up  words  with  my  brain  and  my  tongue  with  wonderful  dexterity  caught  me  so  much  by  surprise  that  I  was  really  amused.  I  tried  to  say  other  things  out  loud,  and  jumbled  them  up  with  the  same  amazing  efficiency.  I  was  pleased.

But  then  I  got  serious.  I  abandoned  the  use  of  words  in  my  thinking,  and  I  began  to  "apprehend"  full  ideas,  without  words.  I  apprehended  that  I  probably  had  a  stroke,  that  it  was  probably  a  small  one,  and  that  I  might  recover.  I  apprehended  without  words  that  the  first  thing  I  should  do  is  finish  my  night's  sleep.  I  laid  down  and  went  to  sleep.

The  following  morning, when  I  awakened,  I  could  immediately  tell  that  I  was  still  "struck  dumb."    I began  thinking  by  that  "apprehending"  of  things  without  words.      Thinking  without  words  was  very  interesting,  and  extremely  efficient.  My  thoughts  galloped  like a  race  horse.

I  went  downstairs  to  the  kitchen.  In  the  presence  of  the  rest  of  the  family,  I  felt  deep,  deep  shame  at  being  struck  dumb,  I  don't  know  why.  When  anyone  asked  me  a  question,  I  just  answered  "HRRRRMMMMPH !!!"    They  concluded  that  I  was  angry  at  something.

Later,  when  the  family  was  out  of  the  house,   I  took  a  trolley  up  to  the  offices  of  the  family  doctor  on  Castor  Avenue  just  south  of  Cottman    in  Northeast  Philadelphia.  The  doctor  drove  me  to  Nazareth  Hospital,     where  they  diagnosed  my  condition  as  "an  ischemic  attack."   He  sent  me  home  with  a  prescription  which  I  never  filled.

I  avoided  everyone  for  two  weeks,  waiting  for  my  ability  to  speak  to  come  back.  And  come  back  it  did.

Lest  anyone  think  that  I  am  implying  here  that  I  was  "Heaven-bound"  in  1978,   I  should  add  that  in  the  case  of  the  thousands  of  other  people   who  have  had  similar  experiences,  but  who  went  farther,   they  discover  that  on  the  other  side  of  that  doorway,  one  goes  to  judgment !!!  The  person  is  asked,  "What  did  you  do  with  the  time  I  gave  you  on  Earth?"

And,  I  should  add,  I  am  a  sinner.  My  wife  Rise`  observed  that  during  the  blacked-out  period  I  was  told  that  I  have  more  to  do  just  to  avoid  being  damned  to  Hell.

I  think  that  she  is  right.

And  I  think  that  I  still  have  more  to  do.

A  final  note:  Law  was  the  best  experience  of  my  life.  I  got  to  open  the  clock  and  see  what  makes  it  tick,  so  to  speak.   One  of  my  friends  in  the  course  of  that  learning  process  was  Medford,  New  Jersey  attorney  Ed  Hogan.   I  told  him  about  my  near  death  experience.     He  responded  with  silence.

A  few  years  ago,  I  tried  to  refer  a  case  to  him.    Ed  said,  "Pete,  I  can't  take  it.  I'm   quitting  law.  I  had  a  pretty  bad  stroke.     I'm  glad  that  it  is  you  calling  --  I  had  essentially  the  same  experience  you  did.   I  went  up  the  tunnel.  I  made  it  through   the  door.    They  told  me  that  it  wasn't  time  for  me  --  that  I  had  to  go  back  to  Earth  for  a  time.  So,  here  I  am."

To  any  skeptics  who  don't  believe  what  I  have  written  here,  I  can  only  say,  God  damn  my  soul  to  Hell  fire  forever  if  I  am  lying,  here.  I  believe  that  telling  the  story  is  a  sacred  enterprise.

Anyway,  friends,  be  good.   Don't  screw  it  up.    Say  a  prayer  for  me.